I wrote a really long thing about this at first but uh. It’s dumb.

So. I’m sorry to Zaelarin that I’m quitting WoW and RP, the game and Skype are already uninstalled. 

Uh. I’m not sorry, to Braeden, about the lengths I went to, to get out of that RPship and to not be contacted, because I was treated like absolute shit, devalued, and guilt-tripped to a point that I can’t even believe I let happen.

I’m not sorry, that I wanted to try to bring Emmeleine back into Chasz’ story, and try to put her back on the good path I started for her in Durotar.

I am really sorry, that the one person I thought would be encouraging or at least sympathetic about the trouble in the above idea, was completely the opposite. I am really sorry, about that person totally shitting all over my character, from an IC and OOC standpoint, and I’m a little sorry that the conversation alone made me want nothing to do with that person again, or their RP partner (ICly, for the partner) or any other group that would mean associating with them.

I’m also sorry that my fiance thinks that RPships are hurting our RL relationship and I hate that they come up in every fight we have. So, done with that.

I’m also sorry, to Vielynne, and anyone else- Riedra, that I was starting and/or promised future RP to, because that’s just not going to happen now. Same goes for Ravenwood. I tried, you tried, but work man. Sorry.

As for what happens to Chasz, I don’t know. When I was at work last night, I thought maybe she’d just off herself or something dumb like that. Y’know, go be with Any and her other babies. Whatever. But I really, really do not want to just kill off this character that I’ve played for over four years now and just be done with her. Even if her story went in unexpected directions that I didn’t always like. Even if people I felt closest to, IC for her and OOC for me, think she’s garbage.

So, we’ll do something predictable instead. We’ll say she ran off with Keleros. I think everyone who disapproves of my character will like that, and the idea of them as a real couple always amused me.

But if you see him around, don’t ask him about Chasz, don’t bother him with it. It probably didn’t work out. For those who have read posts of their interactions, you’ll recall she has “expectations” that he probably doesn’t meet.

So farewell. Um, if Vielynne wants to take over the Peacock Lounge and keep that going, it’s hers. That’s fine. I’m sorry, again to people being left behind. 

I expect I’ll check this once or twice for any anon hatemail or important responses but not much after that. 

like omg that chasz person is super rad even though she's completely original especially with the peacocks. i jus luv her peacocks shit man i forgot to go anon
dylibird

i wanted to just keep this for myself to look at. 

but thanks dyli. and vielynne as well and anyone else who said somethin on my angsty post and the ever lovely zaelarin.

Glad to know there are still a couple people who like Chasz and think she’s relevant. 

PSA

Yes, hello. Chaszmyre is trash and scum and doesn’t deserve any opportunity to prove otherwise. 

Pls send your nastiest anon messages and maybe throw some attempts at casual erp at me in-game or whatever.

oh and drugs. because that is all chasz is about and she is not allowed to change or have support in trying to do so.

thx that is all.

meladasunstriker:

meladasunstriker:

meladasunstriker:

nemeore:

It’s that time again!  Please contact Melada or Nemeore to participate or for more details.

It’ll be loads of fun! 

This is Saturday, people! I know we double booked it with the Forum (Oops!) but you can still come out before the Forum, do some shopping, and then go to it!

Reblog for the day crowd, this is tomorrow! Also, the Forum got pushed back to the 20th so come out and shop!

YES I CAN FINALLY FUCKING BE PART OF THIS! vielynne we should finish dat skype RP and Vie can come rep at the Peacock Lounge tent! :P

meladasunstriker:

meladasunstriker:

meladasunstriker:

nemeore:

It’s that time again!  Please contact Melada or Nemeore to participate or for more details.

It’ll be loads of fun! 

This is Saturday, people! I know we double booked it with the Forum (Oops!) but you can still come out before the Forum, do some shopping, and then go to it!

Reblog for the day crowd, this is tomorrow! Also, the Forum got pushed back to the 20th so come out and shop!

YES I CAN FINALLY FUCKING BE PART OF THIS! vielynne we should finish dat skype RP and Vie can come rep at the Peacock Lounge tent! :P

The first few days were very light and easy. We talked business, as promised. I told him about Eversong Essence and he told me how this whole stupid investing thing actually worked.
I’m still not entirely comfortable paying out to someone for any reason but if I can use his funds to drum up more business, I suppose fair is fair. It was actually fun, talking business with Zaelarin. He was a lot more than just what money he had left to throw at things and his desire to get more of it. We talked a lot about promotion and getting the name of the place out.
Zaelarin also suggested that maybe the lounge wasn’t open enough and we discussed the possibility of more staff to make that happen as well. I thought having more people around would be a good use of his investment and he agreed. We talked about potential artists as well as bartenders. I told him about how much I adored Melada and how guilty I felt, hoping that her performance review went poorly so that I could scoop her up for the lounge.
It was a bit after that, when we got to talking about Riedra. I explained to him what she was to me, sort of a hyperactive little sister. It was hard, talking about the distance between us, and how it was mostly my fault. I guess the same went for Nemeore and I but I didn’t bring her up to Zaelarin just yet. I told him about Eversong Essence, explaining that it was all I used for soap and lotions in my personal life, as well as at the lounge. My own use so far, has been a decent way of promoting it but it wasn’t hard to convince Zaelarin that specialty soaps and lotions were not a hard sell in Quel’thalas and it would be easily worth his while to invest there as well.
All in all, the beach seemed good for business and a lot of ideas were bounced across the sand over fruit and drinks and fruity drinks. I was grateful that the conversation stuck to those things for the most part. I wasn’t really prepared to talk about our personal lives. That to me, was more stressful than anything about the lounge could’ve ever been.

The first few days were very light and easy. We talked business, as promised. I told him about Eversong Essence and he told me how this whole stupid investing thing actually worked.

I’m still not entirely comfortable paying out to someone for any reason but if I can use his funds to drum up more business, I suppose fair is fair. It was actually fun, talking business with Zaelarin. He was a lot more than just what money he had left to throw at things and his desire to get more of it. We talked a lot about promotion and getting the name of the place out.

Zaelarin also suggested that maybe the lounge wasn’t open enough and we discussed the possibility of more staff to make that happen as well. I thought having more people around would be a good use of his investment and he agreed. We talked about potential artists as well as bartenders. I told him about how much I adored Melada and how guilty I felt, hoping that her performance review went poorly so that I could scoop her up for the lounge.

It was a bit after that, when we got to talking about Riedra. I explained to him what she was to me, sort of a hyperactive little sister. It was hard, talking about the distance between us, and how it was mostly my fault. I guess the same went for Nemeore and I but I didn’t bring her up to Zaelarin just yet. I told him about Eversong Essence, explaining that it was all I used for soap and lotions in my personal life, as well as at the lounge. My own use so far, has been a decent way of promoting it but it wasn’t hard to convince Zaelarin that specialty soaps and lotions were not a hard sell in Quel’thalas and it would be easily worth his while to invest there as well.

All in all, the beach seemed good for business and a lot of ideas were bounced across the sand over fruit and drinks and fruity drinks. I was grateful that the conversation stuck to those things for the most part. I wasn’t really prepared to talk about our personal lives. That to me, was more stressful than anything about the lounge could’ve ever been.

awwww-cute:

Livin’ the dream

Warmonger seemed to enjoy the views of the jungle and sea as much as I did. Zaelarin was pleasingly neutral to bringing the beast along. 
Maybe it was some sort of sick, misplaced attachment but I felt the need to take Warmonger everywhere, to take care of him. Maybe it was misplaced attachment that made me buy him at Halfhill in the first place. I was thinking of the Tiny Blacksuns and how unable and afraid I was to be with them while I was hunting down their father and there it happened.
Perhaps their passing is what lead me to pamper him so. I suppose a loss of a different kind of Emmeleine is driving me to the same treatment again. I never thought I would- that I could miss a child, but I did. I wondered and worried after her in passing thoughts quickly put down.
In any case this trip was no time or place to think of such things. Perhaps when I returned to Quel’thalas, that chasm could be crossed.

awwww-cute:

Livin’ the dream

Warmonger seemed to enjoy the views of the jungle and sea as much as I did. Zaelarin was pleasingly neutral to bringing the beast along. 

Maybe it was some sort of sick, misplaced attachment but I felt the need to take Warmonger everywhere, to take care of him. Maybe it was misplaced attachment that made me buy him at Halfhill in the first place. I was thinking of the Tiny Blacksuns and how unable and afraid I was to be with them while I was hunting down their father and there it happened.

Perhaps their passing is what lead me to pamper him so. I suppose a loss of a different kind of Emmeleine is driving me to the same treatment again. I never thought I would- that I could miss a child, but I did. I wondered and worried after her in passing thoughts quickly put down.

In any case this trip was no time or place to think of such things. Perhaps when I returned to Quel’thalas, that chasm could be crossed.

I took every opportunity to try and get myself back into the good habits I’d had at home. Moving back to the lounge had changed so many things and ruined so many of my routines. 
Breathe in, and know that the only way to change is to do it.Breathe out, and know that you are doing that, right now.Breathe in, the only way to get your body back is getting your mind back.Breathe out, and know that it takes time to create a habit.
Breathe in, you did terrible things. You’re a huge idiot. Why do you even still talk to Kel-
Exhale. 
Maybe it’s time to wake up Zaelarin…

I took every opportunity to try and get myself back into the good habits I’d had at home. Moving back to the lounge had changed so many things and ruined so many of my routines. 

Breathe in, and know that the only way to change is to do it.
Breathe out, and know that you are doing that, right now.

Breathe in, the only way to get your body back is getting your mind back.
Breathe out, and know that it takes time to create a habit.

Breathe in, you did terrible things. You’re a huge idiot. Why do you even still talk to Kel-

Exhale. 

Maybe it’s time to wake up Zaelarin…

Long overdue pastry for nemeore

Long overdue pastry for nemeore

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